Hi, my name is Robin V. Bigelow. 

I lost my partner/fiancé Micah Bigelow on May 2nd, 2022.

Micah and I had a wonderful, loving and unconditional relationship. We shared a beautiful life together. Not only was he the love of my life, he was also my best friend and the best partner a woman can dream of.

Micah was a wild-fire faller contracted with Cal-Fire and USFS. During the off season Micah worked for a site-safety company and owned a tree service business under the name “Arb Tech Tree Care” in Northern CA. Before Micah passed away, he had just turned his self-employment business into a corporation. The name of the corporation was M. Bigelow Contracting. 

Micah was the best person I knew. He was kind, selfless, the most caring and hardworking man. He was always willing to lend a helping hand, whether it be to friends, family or strangers.

Micah changed my life and made life beautiful, exciting and secure. He made me feel complete and like I was exactly where I was supposed to be. Micah was the man I prayed for; he was my home.

Losing Micah was very unexpected and the most devastating thing I have ever experienced. The pain of losing your person is simply indescribable. Every one's lives continue on, while yours has felt like it ended, yet you're still alive..

In the midst of my grief, I have had many creative projects and ideas. I needed an outlet to express the love I have for Micah. Just because someone has passed on doesn't mean the love dies with them. NOT EVEN DEATH is an expression of my grief, loss and most importantly, my undying love for Micah. Everything I've done to this point has been for the love of Micah. I think he would be extremely proud of me for having the will to continue living and to start from scratch; after we thought we had our future planned out, together. 

Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive during my time of grieving. And to my fellow widows, I love you all. You matter and your feelings are valid. Your grief is as deep as your love is.

Grief is a lonely journey, but you are not alone. Thank you for being here and being a part of my online grief community.

XOXO, R